Surgery

Today is my tubal ligation.

I am so excited about this surgery. The choice to not have anymore children was a hard decision to make.

On some level I feel as though, because I only have one child, that I am missing out on something. On other levels though, I just keep watching the time slip by. My one and only is now 15 years old and set to graduate (hopefully) in just three short years. Therefore, in theory it would be cool to have another child. In reality? Not so much. I honestly cannot imagine what it would be like to start over with a baby again. Ugg. No thanks. I am too old and too tired. I look forward to the new freedom and choices that sterilization brings me.

This surgery just clears the path to a whole new life. This surgery removes the possibility of having more babies completely out of the equation and leaves me with only one option: build a life that doesn't revolve around being a mom. How exciting is that?